Last night made a Costco run and then took Meow out to dinner at BJ’s for a (belated) birthday dinner with J&BW. Had their delish pizza, but the artichoke was too strongly marinated, so next time I’m going to stick to pepperoni, onion, garlic and basil. We were gonna try their chocolate doom pizzookie, but they brought us the wrong one. It was free though, so who’s to argue? Our waitress actually remembered us from when Meow, my pirate and I went there for my birthday brownie Sundae (sadly J&BW were sick that night and couldn’t join us).

I saw my psych today and he agreed to let me slowly start backing down on my meds to see how it goes. He suggested against it considering how long I’ve dealt with depression, but he was ok with trying it since that’s what I wanted to do. I have an appointment to see him again in a month to see how things are, and I told my pirate to let me know if I start getting moody or cranky. My two major deciders were that first, usually my meds stop working for me (depression wise) after 3-6 months. It’s been significantly longer than that since our last adjustment. Also, our last adjustment wasn’t for moodiness, just fatigue/migraine. Second, when the meds stopped working for the depression, they also stopped helping me sleep and my migraines. I haven’t been sleeping soundly for a while (I’m sleeping long enough, just not deep enough since I’m often aware of my dreams), and my migraines are creeping back. But they aren’t work stress triggered ones, I just get small ones right before bed or wake up with them, but often they go away on their own. So to me that says the meds have stopped working for me…. but my mood has still been fine. I’ve even dealt with losing my little loves way better than I expected to be able to. Mostly it’s been distraction techniques (can we say WoW?) or reminding myself that I’m wasting time now with Khalua pitying myself for missing Cookie & Mocha. That usuallly snaps me out of it.

I have my annual check-up tomorrow. Hopefully I remember to ask for a referral for skin mapping. I have a few moles that have probably always been there, but I don’t remember, so a full check-up and mapping would probably be a good idea to be safe. I’m pretty religious about sunscreen now, but I burned plenty as a kid.

I probably won’t go out salsa dancing tonight as I have WoW plans with Tora & have to be up early for my appointment. Happy Cinco de Mayo folks!