Resonance

I know dozens of masked Autistic people who adopted a “teacher’s pet” or “best little boy in the world” personality from a young age, and who are still paying the price of having done so to this day. You can’t have a balanced or healthy relationship with someone else if your primary motivation is convincing them at all times that you’re worthy and good.

How Society Forces Autistics to Become Inhibited & Passive | by Devon Price | Medium

I was generally the teacher’s pet and helping people feels good because then I get appreciation/positive attention. When someone asks me to have self-compassion or acknowledges me for a skill or ability instead of an action, I often want to cry.