I am so grateful for my partner. I’m having the thought that I’m struggling to put things into words. And now the thought that no words are needed, I can just enjoy the feeling of gratitude. It seems to me that it’s a gentle type of joy.

I was the cause of my own suffering.

This thought is horrible, and painful and liberating. I think the emotions I’m describing are a combination of anger, sadness, surprise, and joy.

If I am the cause of my own suffering, then I can choose to not suffer.

Each moment, I want to choose to come back to myself, the present moment and gratitude.

I’m having the thought that I might understand what the Buddha experienced.

This feeling of joy and peace is so powerful. And until others are ready, there is nothing I can say or do to show them the path. Except for by being my best self. Which means I want to develop the skills of focus and calm.

I can best help others by helping myself. If I am suffering, that is just my body’s way of letting me know there is something I should be doing.

The better I care for myself, the better I am caring for the world.

This helped, because I was ready for it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USk2m92fisE

Life is suffering. And suffering is a choice. If I am suffering, it is communicating something to me, if I will just slow down and listen. And if I don’t then I am choosing suffering. Suffering is a gift to let me know that I am not doing something I feel I should be/want to do.